should have close my heart.

these few days. i m down depresed!
i m sad, upset. i wonder why....
i love you and why do u never appreciate me? why?
i hate this kind of feeling! i hate it when u tried to ignore me! i hate it! i hate it!
is that a difficult task to be with u?
i struggle deep inside my heart. i knew u never treat me as good as him.
i m such a bitch. limmer.
why do i suffer myself to fall in love that someone never appreciates me before! why must i?
i m such an idiot! stupid and naive enuf to believe i will change u. but i never. i tried my best to give all the toleration to u. end up, u told me in ur dictionary, doesnt exist the world TOLERATE! wtf is that?
ok. i understand
u never tried to understand never tried to believe me! and the most important, u never appreciates me~
if so, why do i be so silly to fond on u?
VINX, try to learn smart, and be clever. never fall for a man that doesn't appreciates u!
u are such an idiot!
is time to wake up and face the fact that he doesn't love u anymore!

choosing my destiny in my life

i m blur~ kinda confused~
is it that choosing the one you love, the one u wanted to be together is so difficult?
the one i always wanted to be; the one i always love.
i nearly crazy!!!
but, someone told me, the one u be together aint the one u love the most!
maybe i should agree with it! MAYBE!!
i love you, u approached to me finally!
but the time ain't correct!
maybe, we shouldn't start the relationship! IT's a WRONG!
MAYBE we should maintatin our friendship. forever and ever!
i love you, you knew that!
at the same time. i need him too! i throw myself on him, i rely him.
but u don't know that! i love u, i choose to be with u!
i choosed! i made an option too..
but u failed me~ dissapointed me!
i need someone that could give me the feeling of security!
u can't do it! u never promise anything, maybe it's the best way u wanted to protect me!
it lead me to miserable!
u never tend to gimme a call, or even a SINGLE MESSAGE!
that's over~ i m enough of it!
you are not my destiny, i assume...
i choose my fate; i control my destiny

2 busybody person

To 2 busybody person..

u know wat? u shouldn't meddle with things that are totally NON of ur BUSINESS!
criticizing people is the worse thing that i hate the most!
gossiping people in front of me will make me disdain and despise u!
since u like to criticize a lot, why don't u go and tell him/her directly instead of citicize them behind them?
do u look more noble if gossiping people around? wat do people think of u?
u have no rights to criticize them just because u are not qualified enough to criticize. u are not better than them, but more worse.
gossiping behind them? makes u more like an idiot.
have some self-analyzment, have some self-critism, have some self-examination.
afterall, u two totally looks like an idiot!!!!
asking people about their personal privacy.. gossiping when people who are in trouble.

u said, it was kinda concern. do u think u really concern them? isn't dat way u should do to them if u really concern them.
SPEAK TO THEM, ADVICE THEM, is the most polite and respectful way u should do to them. aint dat gossip them in front of others, aint dat criticizing in front of others. u two look stupid. damn it! i hate dat so much especially when u talk this kinda thing to me.
god damn it! mind ur words, mind ur behaviour. if not, sooner or later, i m fucking sure dat u will be in trouble with someone else.

to the 2 busy body around, mind ur words, stop criticizing, i get bored and upset when this keep on going! stop it before ur mouth triggers the god mad on ya~

nice sentence

• if u judge a people, u will have no time to love them.
• in a day, when u don't come across any problems, you can be sure that u are travelling a wrong path.
• if someone feels that they have never make a mistake in their life, then it means they had never tried a new thing in their life!
• never break four thing in our life, trust, relation, promise & heart. because when they break, they don't make noise but pain a lot.
• three sentece for getting success : know more than others, work more than others, expect less than others!
• if u win, u need not have to explain, when u loose, u should not be there to explain.
• if we cannot love the person whom we see, then how can we love god, whom we can't see?
• everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.

words

the words that u said out from ur mouth, will cause a lots of unpleasant things to occurs.
words... once u pop out from ur mouth, it is very hard to keep it back.
mind your words simply saying out a words. sometimes, u will cause ppl to pissed off. but u duno. u dunno that u had already make dat fellow pissed off.
dun say that u were accidentally, dun apologise, think twice before u simply say out a word.
simply complain about the others, will make people to despise u. u complain about the others, doesn't make u more noble.
doesn't make u more better.
dun criticise about others when u dun have any self analyzement. have some self estimation before u wana complain about the others.
u will look down by the others, and will depise by the others when this bull shit of attitude and behaviour keep fucking going on u!
it was worst! totally sucks, and bull shit!

the third party pops out~

the third-party pops out.
try to tackle me. try to do everything just hope to win my heart.
brought me to the beach, and we chit-chatting.
on the way he brings me back to my hostel. he grab my hand.
i take off my hand. he grab again, again and again.
he told me, he want to be with me although he knew that i had a boy friend. swt... =.="
speechless...
i had no idea with what he is going to do with me.
i feel unsafe when wana be with him. he is such a jerk.
if i choose to be with him, i had done it in a early years~
he just can't understand why i don't accept him. coz, i will probably not fall in love with him. fall in love with those who treat me like a toy. like a barbie doll.
i feel no sincere in his heart. he is not sincere to me.
he keep begging and calling me to be with him. then i asked him 3 question:
1. why do u want to be with me?
2. what will u do after u are bored with me? just dump me? will u promise me to take care of me forever and ever?
3. can u tolerate with my temper? will u tolerate someone's temper since ur temper is not good enuf?
he turns silent. he said, early judgement just will ruin things up. time will prove everything that he really cares for me. if the time does, it will jz prove dat he is just a liar!
a liar that try to fool me around.
i ask him whether will he be regret someday if we really be together. he said, he will tell me. he will let me know. then he probably will dump me. i assume.
let me ask u a question, am i stupid enough to let u fool? am i naive enuf to let u play like a barbie doll? well, let me answer it, i m not. i will not let u play and fool like an idiot. stop ur idiotic action, as this will really make me despise u.~~

the whole world knew tat i love my boyfriend. yes, i admit! yes, i do! i love him more than i can say, i love him more than anything in this world.
between u and him, i can't make any comparism.
coz, u are not qualify enough~~~~~

after PR presentation

it's been a happy day for me to finish all my assignment and presentation of Durex. I had been working so hard to do for that. and finally, it has a very happy ending. I feel relief. lecturer said, i presented well and our group are creative.
i m happy today!