Thursday, July 30, 2009

i never see such a sissy person before!

i never see such a sissy person before..
wondering why he wana snatch to do all those girls stuff from me~~
i assume dat he tought to be like dat ~ ok, and that's fine !
but the worst is..
whenever he do those stuff.. he think that he is so brilliant!
and he expects he wont do something wrongly..
wat the...
!#$&*(*&^%%$
i hate him so much! he thinks dat he can manage everything!
fuck it !
and those things that he done out just like a piece of shit!
no, i mean is worst than shit!

Monday, July 20, 2009

pls mind ur words!

to the one who speak rudely in tarcian..
excuse me..
pls mind ur words.. coz u are acting no manners there..
if u keep on ur naive and lame words, u just act like a joker..
pls dun simply take their parents and said that they don't teached them well....
i assure u that u have no parents to teached u that isn't dat? hahaha...
since u think my mom doesn't teached me well..
well, i give u a chances to teach me. ok?
hahahaha... act stupid for people to despise u! funny~~~

excuse me, sir~

excuse me sir~~
pls answer in a polite way when somebody is questioning u in a very polite way.
excuse me sir~~
pls do not failed to answer in a polite way when the person who talks to you in a sincere way!
excuse me sir~~
pls try not to dare others temper while her temper are under control!
excuse me sir~~
u aint that person mom, even u are, u still failed to predict when her temper blow off!
excuse me sir~~
don't ever insist to challenge people's temper as u are a losser!
excuse me sir~~
try not to counselling people and talk craps!
excuse me sit~~
try not to counselling people and thinks that u are much more noble and experienced than the others!
excuse me sir~~
pls dun speak jesus or lord in front of me, coz i am a FIEND!!
excuse me sir~~
pls dun act stupidly, as ur action are perfunctory!
excuse me sir~~
pls mind ur words and make sure that ur words that came out from ur fucking mouth doesn't hurt people feels!
EXCUSE ME SIR~~
i am here to say to you'll, pls dun act stupidly in front of me as i will treat u like a nerd and despise u! dun try to challenge my temper as my temper are under my control. if u insist to do so, dare it with ur own risk! and i prayed to you, pls dun act like a god and talks like the way father talks! i will fed up of ur dumb actions!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

my tatoo..

My tatoo...

obviously.. u can see in the picture..

there is a big differences in these two pics.

the first tatoo, i done in since i was 16 years old, form 4 dat time..and it cost about 180 and takes about 1 hour to finish...this stupid fellow dat tatoo for me... is a dumb idiot stupid guy!! waste my time, my money and make me suffer.. hate him so much!

the second one, it cost me about 300, and it takes about 6 hours to complete the mess.. i can see from that.. the tatooist that tatoo-ed for me.. he's proficient in tatoo...he had almost 10 years experience and good in art design.. and then he told me.. said dat the guy who tatoo for me, only learns about two to three months, and his tatoo skill is damn holly shit!=="

my god... suffer for 6 hours.. and at last.. it complete.!! and i am satisfy with it!

and that is my tatoo..

Saturday, July 18, 2009

is marriage relevant with two family?

Is MARRIAGE relevant with two family?
this is the question that keep on playing in my mind.
my brother asked me...
do u really wana be with him?
since his family background is exactly the same with urs?
do u really think that he will suit u?
u need to backup all the things once u had married with him! marriage isn't dat as simple as u think! marriage consider two families that need to combined! once u had married, a lot of things u need to fufill or manage... (as u already knew dat his family background!)
if u aint going to married with him, then why u want to be with him? aren't dat is just a waste of time?
this stupid question keep playing in my mind...
i was exhausted...
i nearly collapse..
the relationship between us nearly crumble.
i can see that...
u work so hard but still can't fufil my desire.
i was selfish, i am greedy to have more hope on u!
i count on ya... and pls hope that u won't failed me!! and never fail me!
pls...
DUN U EVER FAILED ME..

sorry, i apologize

mom,
sorry, i apologize...
i knew i was too over about it.. i never bother about your feeling...
i am sorry coz i had hurt u so badly... i apologize for being rude to you..
i knew since the day i borned, u work so hardly, independently just to grew us up..
i had a useless dad, the whole world knews about it.. even my cousin, who keep counselling us to respect our dad, everything.. and now totally give up. wat a terrible dad..
mom,
i really regret for what i have done these days..
i act as a spoiled child. i was so terrible... i really never care or mind about how stress or pressure u are!! i was worst!
i never learn to respect and even appreciate what you have done for me...
and now,
i've notice and i will try my best to be a filial daughter..
i will protect u...
i will care u...
i will concern u..
i will try to communicate with you...
i will solve my own problem without disturbing you..
i will strike for my result.. to show u and i want u to proud of me..!!
i shall never grumble for what u have given to me!!
NEVER!
again,
sorry i say...

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

i quarrel again with u...

why do i have to quarrel with u all the time?
i am tired enough to quarrel with u... really tired.
today,
i am asking a penny from u... and u grumble...
i send a message:
do u think that i spent so much? the money that u are goin to send for me is the middle month money isn't it? do u think that 70 will be enough? fine now, i dont need u to send me the money anymore, i will figure out myself... my 500 i spend it on my NEW PHONE, do u satisfy with the answer? u knw wat? i HATE when i take money from u, i hate to quarrel. if i m given the chances to choose, for sure i will choose not to take from u. do u nmotice that i was starving because i save money for other usage? one more question, u ask in ur heart, do u think u r fair enought for threathening me? can i assume that the money u gave is a concern or a love from u? so, from now onwards, no matter when u give me money, or what is the amount of the money, or even u dun feel like giving the money, it will be ok for me. i will not beg like a beggar and hear something that irritates my ear.
second message:
u keep compare and compare me with the others. oppsitely, do i make a comparation between u with others? all i knew was, i had one mom, the only one. i shall never deny it. i saw something that warm my heart. i saw my housemate, her whole familycame and visit. she lost her phone, then i was thinking, that if i lost my phone, for sure u will scold me like hell and not just bring me the phone without grumble. am i right? and ther parents brought her a new phone! their concern for their daughter are much more than i expects. it touches my heart deeply. touches the deepest place in my heart. i shall never imagine that one day my parents will do that. cause i knew the circumstances doesn't allowed me to imagine it. reason? coz i had an utterly hopeless useless dad. i didn't blame anyone as well. all i want was, a little concern or even a sharing love from u?
*do i sound selfish?
then, ur reply:
i already told u that from last few months, u have to understand or appreciate when i gave u the money, u never say thank you. *do i taught to say thank u? i have to pay may's expenses too, don't be selfish and think only for urself like ur dad. *i din ask for more. never bother to call me if u have money*i was wondering that, do u call me either?, u sms me when u need money, everybody knows that. what am i? an atm machine?*if u insist to think that, i am speechless.. last time i used to bank in for u by 20th every month, can't u remember that? u said u settle urself, u thought u are so capable without taking the rm 500?* are u daring me? do u really think i will dead without you? did u beg me early this month when we are not talking?* u said we are not talking, and if i beg means? u will ignored!! when i beg, the irritating words for sure will come out from ur mouth! u didn't call me during that time, did u beg me? moreover, ur dad didn't even give me a single cent to me. now we are in debt, borrowing from othres, don't u know? be grateful person, dun grumble too much!

i am very dissapointed in what u have write today...
i thought wat i've express will really makes u understand.
but, it makes the distance farer...
i am down, sad... speechless...