should have close my heart.

these few days. i m down depresed!
i m sad, upset. i wonder why....
i love you and why do u never appreciate me? why?
i hate this kind of feeling! i hate it when u tried to ignore me! i hate it! i hate it!
is that a difficult task to be with u?
i struggle deep inside my heart. i knew u never treat me as good as him.
i m such a bitch. limmer.
why do i suffer myself to fall in love that someone never appreciates me before! why must i?
i m such an idiot! stupid and naive enuf to believe i will change u. but i never. i tried my best to give all the toleration to u. end up, u told me in ur dictionary, doesnt exist the world TOLERATE! wtf is that?
ok. i understand
u never tried to understand never tried to believe me! and the most important, u never appreciates me~
if so, why do i be so silly to fond on u?
VINX, try to learn smart, and be clever. never fall for a man that doesn't appreciates u!
u are such an idiot!
is time to wake up and face the fact that he doesn't love u anymore!

choosing my destiny in my life

i m blur~ kinda confused~
is it that choosing the one you love, the one u wanted to be together is so difficult?
the one i always wanted to be; the one i always love.
i nearly crazy!!!
but, someone told me, the one u be together aint the one u love the most!
maybe i should agree with it! MAYBE!!
i love you, u approached to me finally!
but the time ain't correct!
maybe, we shouldn't start the relationship! IT's a WRONG!
MAYBE we should maintatin our friendship. forever and ever!
i love you, you knew that!
at the same time. i need him too! i throw myself on him, i rely him.
but u don't know that! i love u, i choose to be with u!
i choosed! i made an option too..
but u failed me~ dissapointed me!
i need someone that could give me the feeling of security!
u can't do it! u never promise anything, maybe it's the best way u wanted to protect me!
it lead me to miserable!
u never tend to gimme a call, or even a SINGLE MESSAGE!
that's over~ i m enough of it!
you are not my destiny, i assume...
i choose my fate; i control my destiny

2 busybody person

To 2 busybody person..

u know wat? u shouldn't meddle with things that are totally NON of ur BUSINESS!
criticizing people is the worse thing that i hate the most!
gossiping people in front of me will make me disdain and despise u!
since u like to criticize a lot, why don't u go and tell him/her directly instead of citicize them behind them?
do u look more noble if gossiping people around? wat do people think of u?
u have no rights to criticize them just because u are not qualified enough to criticize. u are not better than them, but more worse.
gossiping behind them? makes u more like an idiot.
have some self-analyzment, have some self-critism, have some self-examination.
afterall, u two totally looks like an idiot!!!!
asking people about their personal privacy.. gossiping when people who are in trouble.

u said, it was kinda concern. do u think u really concern them? isn't dat way u should do to them if u really concern them.
SPEAK TO THEM, ADVICE THEM, is the most polite and respectful way u should do to them. aint dat gossip them in front of others, aint dat criticizing in front of others. u two look stupid. damn it! i hate dat so much especially when u talk this kinda thing to me.
god damn it! mind ur words, mind ur behaviour. if not, sooner or later, i m fucking sure dat u will be in trouble with someone else.

to the 2 busy body around, mind ur words, stop criticizing, i get bored and upset when this keep on going! stop it before ur mouth triggers the god mad on ya~