my birthday

thank you to all my frenz dat had been celebrated with me on my 19th birthday.
to leon, thank you of ur cake, i love it so much!
esp to bi, thank you for ur plantinum necklace... i love it so much, i never receive such expensive present before...
to those that wana to celebrates my birthday with me so desperately, that doesn't give me any respond.. hahahaha... and this wat we call as sincere..??!!!
U, crapsing around, bull shitting around... at last, U DONE NOTHING~

i thought that u will be doing something differently, something more special for me, just for me.. but then, no at all...
that is utterly dissapointed! u pop out in our circumstances, u appeared to be the third-party, u tried to spoiled and ruinned everything.. but, i tell u, YOU HAD FAILED to do that..
coz u are totally a looser.. a useless with no balls, no guts guy.. chances had been given, opportunity will only gave to those who are well-prepared.. ask it urself, had u prepared it well?
at least a person that is more useless.. had done something more wonderful, more cheerful, to cherish my birthday, to brighten up my day...
tonight, i will be going to johor and celebrate with my dearest hubby, dason...
so... everything will be going fine and wonderful...
my birthday wishes, is to be a more tougher girl in my future..

my birthday present

thanks my dear fren.. the present that u gave me, i love it so much!
i never receive such expensive and warm heart present before... js because of u.. YOU gave me this memorable present. i will wear it on my neck, forever and ever...
i love this present so much!!!
i know that u were true and sincere to me... me too..
i can feel it.. i can see it...
thanks again for the present...

is that consider as "care"?

hhmmmm.. wat should i classified u? stupid? idiot? dumb? no balls? no guts? nerd?
ohh... when i am sharing something that i really desperated to share with u... the responds that u gave...
dun embarresed me...
wat the fuck? wat kind of stupid sentence is that? are u insane?
YOU... studying the same course with me.. u said u had no time...
i embarresed u? u are the one who embarresed me...
u have no guts, to participate the competition and keep on crapsing around..

i am not that worst...

i am not that worst...
i knew this since after i participate the competition..
all the time, i thought that i am the worst compared to all of the contestant..
i thought every participation are good in english.. they can express themself very well, they are good enough, they speak fluent and perfect english, with no chinese slang.... and everythings..
and today i knew dat, i beat them flat, except for one of the contestant in my group. she is good, good intonation, no granmar mistake, no chinese slang.. i love her english!!
in my group, i am the second highest marks of all..
so, i was wondering whether can i make that to final and win as a champion? i want to make it..
Today,
in the public speaking, i heard one contestant present about confidence..
so, i must be confidence enought to myself..anyway, i am not that bad.. that is the things that i am glad.
truely emphasize that.. I AM NOT THAT BAD!!
looking foward on tomorrow result.. if i can make it to the final.. i wan to be the best and beat the rest!! I WILL DO THAT & I MUST DO THAT!!! and that is the target that i need to achieve...

i've made my decision...

i've made my decision... to choose my mr right..
i know i've made a brilliant choice... and by choosing u, make me feel so warm..
third party pop out in the circumstance...
i was wondering and wondering... should i compare you with him? i asked myself again again and again.. until i feel exhausted for being such a stupid person.
i shall never take u and him to compare, never!
u are much more better than him.. u care me more than anything in this world, u love me more than anything in this world.
and this is the thing that i always hope for.
i shall never breach the agreement, promise that we've made together.. NEVER!!
i shall confine these dumb problems now!
i will swear for u.. i will promise, asserts that i will love u more than anything, more than i can say.

public speaking

public speaking make me a real head-ache..
i was wondering that should i quit from the competiton... since every contestant is so good, and i am the worst of all...
i get so stress because of this stupid public speaking..
my tears went down for once just because i was about to get crazy because of all these pressure and tension..
at last, i'd my friend's encourage.. he encourage me that i should be brave. i musn't give up so easily before i have my try. that ain't my style. i am not a losser. i just can't quit before having a try?
if i lose for the competiton, i will accept it. this is all about experiences.. i will gain experience in this public speaking contest. i will try my best and beat the rest.
if u r trying to tease for being not qualified enough to join this competition, then u're totally wrong.
because, i have the guts to enter this competiton, and u doesn't.
if u can judge people, then u are very well educated.. and most probably, those nonsense won't come out from ur fucking mouth.
and if these fucking words do come out from your mouth, no matter how high educated are u, for me, u are just a piece of shit!