is that consider as "care"?

hhmmmm.. wat should i classified u? stupid? idiot? dumb? no balls? no guts? nerd?
ohh... when i am sharing something that i really desperated to share with u... the responds that u gave...
dun embarresed me...
wat the fuck? wat kind of stupid sentence is that? are u insane?
YOU... studying the same course with me.. u said u had no time...
i embarresed u? u are the one who embarresed me...
u have no guts, to participate the competition and keep on crapsing around..

i am not that worst...

i am not that worst...
i knew this since after i participate the competition..
all the time, i thought that i am the worst compared to all of the contestant..
i thought every participation are good in english.. they can express themself very well, they are good enough, they speak fluent and perfect english, with no chinese slang.... and everythings..
and today i knew dat, i beat them flat, except for one of the contestant in my group. she is good, good intonation, no granmar mistake, no chinese slang.. i love her english!!
in my group, i am the second highest marks of all..
so, i was wondering whether can i make that to final and win as a champion? i want to make it..
Today,
in the public speaking, i heard one contestant present about confidence..
so, i must be confidence enought to myself..anyway, i am not that bad.. that is the things that i am glad.
truely emphasize that.. I AM NOT THAT BAD!!
looking foward on tomorrow result.. if i can make it to the final.. i wan to be the best and beat the rest!! I WILL DO THAT & I MUST DO THAT!!! and that is the target that i need to achieve...

i've made my decision...

i've made my decision... to choose my mr right..
i know i've made a brilliant choice... and by choosing u, make me feel so warm..
third party pop out in the circumstance...
i was wondering and wondering... should i compare you with him? i asked myself again again and again.. until i feel exhausted for being such a stupid person.
i shall never take u and him to compare, never!
u are much more better than him.. u care me more than anything in this world, u love me more than anything in this world.
and this is the thing that i always hope for.
i shall never breach the agreement, promise that we've made together.. NEVER!!
i shall confine these dumb problems now!
i will swear for u.. i will promise, asserts that i will love u more than anything, more than i can say.

public speaking

public speaking make me a real head-ache..
i was wondering that should i quit from the competiton... since every contestant is so good, and i am the worst of all...
i get so stress because of this stupid public speaking..
my tears went down for once just because i was about to get crazy because of all these pressure and tension..
at last, i'd my friend's encourage.. he encourage me that i should be brave. i musn't give up so easily before i have my try. that ain't my style. i am not a losser. i just can't quit before having a try?
if i lose for the competiton, i will accept it. this is all about experiences.. i will gain experience in this public speaking contest. i will try my best and beat the rest.
if u r trying to tease for being not qualified enough to join this competition, then u're totally wrong.
because, i have the guts to enter this competiton, and u doesn't.
if u can judge people, then u are very well educated.. and most probably, those nonsense won't come out from ur fucking mouth.
and if these fucking words do come out from your mouth, no matter how high educated are u, for me, u are just a piece of shit!

i had moved out!

april 15th, i moved in to my new hostel in kampar!
a real nice house..
moving in with my frenz, her puppy, and my puppy, creamoz.
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may 14th, i moved out! because of "U" dun wan to pay the deposit...
i beg u again and again to pay the rental... and in return, u answer me that u are moving out without caring other's feeling! u are selfish!
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on may 8th, we went back to take our ubs payroll test.. and i forgot to bring my bankcard to pay the deposit...
and U ignore the pay too....
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may 10th, uncle, the renter called me to pay for the deposit and asked for the IC...
i can't manage to give it to him.. i delay it!
u totally ignore..
we delay the pay....
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may 11th, i called u and ask for the money... u said no money...
i called uncle again... asking for his acc number..he gaves me.... he rushed me to pay the pay dat we promised to him!
i get frustrated... angry... i lost my temper and rush u to pay the money.. must pay the money before 15th... bank in to my account before 15th.. i totally ignore ur situation! coz everytime u gaves me excuses... hopeless excuses... is right for me to ignore it! it is worthless for me to hear all fucking crapsing... is bull shit!
i am angry because :

• u break ur promise to pay for the rental
• i ask u to keep the money for the rental, and u din success to keep
• i BEG u to pay for the rental... ( i dun beg people)
• when i am getting mad... u make me mad just like pouring the oil on the burning fire...
• u said u are moving without paying a single coin, totally ignore people's feeling, without caring people situation
• u are the one who said u are moving out, but then u are the one who called me and ask me why i wan to move out.. U ARE WEIRD, ODD

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finally, i make up my mind.... my last decision..

better move out as soon as possible to prevent me, myself involves in those stupid and annoying problemssss again!!

i dun like problems... and, u create problems for me...

problems frenz, troublesome frenz, wat is the use for making frenz with them?

i hate people who bluff me, cheat on me... i hate it too much! and u, redo and redo it again until i am fed up... i am tired for being ur frenz... is too tired... it's time for me to do some relaxtion, i give up this friendship!

i thanked u for teaching me so many morale about humans in this world. thanked u for teaching me not to trust frenz ever...

my frenz betray me before, and u fool me.. i am stupid for u to fool me again and again! i admit it. i will learn from it. thanks for teaching me these comman sense...

I have choosen the wrong frenz in my life...

what is friendship? for the sake of friendship, will u willing to sacrifice anything?? but, is it worth for u to sacrifice all the things for "the friend" who being so useless, unresponsible???
firstly, the major things that i wan to tell all of u... becareful when u wan to know a real frenz! is it hard to know and recognise ur frenz deeply.. as my example... let me tell all of u a real story of mine..
i know a friend.... who act like a piece of shit!!
spending money just like her home printing cash.. wow.. and, this is totally non of my business about how is she going to spend her money.. but, the things dat influence me is her attitude..
okay, we are staying together.. sharing, renting a house together with our new puppy, creamoz and milky..
before we stay together... i already consider about this question.. trying to ask myself.. again and again.. "am i really supposed to stay with her? since she always break people's promise.. and being brainless all the time?" why i said dat she is totally brainless? becoz, she will plan a things without thinking wat situation she is.. let us take an example.. her dad gaves her rm 500 per month. and she will spent about rm600-700... over the bajet of hers.. without thinking the subsequences..
i had already trying to convince myself thousands of times... just dun wan to believe the facts. the facts tat she is being so unresponsible, so useless and hopeless!!!!
and finally, we moved together...
is about less than two months we moved in.. problems comes to me..
and she is really a troublesome people...
our renter.. let us to owe the money because we had not enough of money to pay him. and we already PROMISE to pay back the renter on may after we get the money from our parents..
ok.. this is the things dat we promise...
then when May comes.. I HAD ALREADY PREPARED the money to be given to the renter...
and when i ask from my frenz... she said.. sorry.. she had no money at all!!!
i ask.. how bout rm300?? she said NO.. then she got money to go to kl.. and oni bring 200 to kl.. and rm 200.. wat is dat? cash or hell's money? no money can go to kl.... wow...impressive .. and i ask and ask until i am getting frustrated..getting fed up about her.. totally dissapointed!!!
and then she say she wana to move out.. without paying a single coin!!!
do u think the renter will let us move out if we din pay for a single thing?? everybody knows the answer.. right?
well well well... now... i am getting very fed up about this girl!!!
nvr trust a friend who break ur promise again and again!
this is the morale tat i success and the only things dat i learn from her.. i thanked her for letting me this knowledge...

the day i get robbed...

the day i get robbed by two robbers was saturday...
i am so careless.. and this is all my fault. triggers my boyfrenz suffer with me.. dear.. i am so sorry... i am really sorry...
the day was a very hot afternoon.. i went to city square with my dear... go there for some shopping.. becuse sitting the whole day at home will really turn me into crazy.. so we decided to go for some walk at the mall there..
he got his leg hurt last friday before we get injured by those fucking robbers! he got his leg injured and his leg is recovering... we took a motor ride to the mall... u know, ridding on a motor makes more romances....hahahaha.... although it is so damn hot out there.. but we still prefer to ride motor, because the car park in the mall is a blood sucker.. they charge very expensive...so, riding motor is the suitest choice ever...
after shopping.... my frenz called me to go back to bkt indah to eat laksa...
and my dear is driving the motor and we were chatting happily...discussing where are we going to eat afterwards... the momment were great!
unfortunately...
we were riding dat time....
suddenly, a motor, kawasaki, black colour with two fucking malay pig robbers... drived at out left hand side so near... and the motor's noise was so loud!!!! i am shocked!
only a few cm and they will hit us!!! and this time... the guy who was sitting at the back there.. trying to take out his hand and....
i still wondering, what is he going to do with his hand??? off my motor engine?? swt... =.=" i wonder why i had such stupid idea...after i pop out this stupid idea in my mind, then only i am concious ... knowing that my bag is in front of the motor basket... i was about to scream dat time... he watched at me eye to eye..
and without some mercy heart, the fucking guy kick our motor(the ford there..) with his mean cruelty heart!!! i hate him!! caused my leg and my hand injured.... T.T
i was so pain until i cannot sleep for the whole long night.... crying... is useless!!!
i hate robbers!! dun let me to see u again! i curse u!!!
i believe dat the GOD will PUNISHED u one day..
i really hope the day will come!!